Still Waiting ……………….

Hi Sweetheart, I just came to say sorry. I realized how stupid I was to fight for the smallest of things and not let you have your way. I am sorry about fighting for the right side of the bed: you can sleep there hereafter. The bathroom tiles can be maroon and not blue. You Know what? I know it’s too hard to believe, but I’ve started closing the bathroom door after I am done using it. It won’t bother you anymore Honey. I’ve given up booze time with my friends only so that I can hold your hands in the evening and watch you laugh for eternity. I’ve understood that I have a life apart from work and I will never keep you waiting all day just so that you can see my face after my meetings.

Hey look at me! I am wearing the tie and cologne you got me on our engagement. We’ll go for go-kart today and I assure you that I won’t cancel out on you because of last minute work. Please give me a chance and trust me when I say that I won’t expect you to be that gorgeous wife of the great vice president of the fortune company. I swear I Love you more than my Jack Daniel. Sweets, please don’t pull my ear because I am lying to you today. I want to take care of myself so that I can live longer with you.

Remember, you always told me that you wanted to go to the Bahamas on a holiday, sit by the beach with the sound of waves pampering our ears, open sky and bonfire. Hmmm... We’re going there this valentine’s. It’s been years since I celebrated this day with you.

We can go for those late night strolls and early morning aerobics. In fact, we can go to your favourite instructor and not the guy I wanted to go to, Am not just saying all of this but I want everything about my life to be your way.

Am sorry for all those things I said and did. Today I realize that I did reserve my nasty side for you. I shouldn’t have fought about your mother coming over to invest a month with us. She can stay here as long as she wants. I am sorry for being abusive. I am sorry for hanging up on you and walking out on you in between conversation. Am sorry for not taking the time to enjoy the food you cooked for me with so much love.

On that day you asked me if I could drop you for the wedding and I should not have refused. I should not have given reasons. But you still understood and were ready to take an auto-rickshaw. You asked me for change to give the auto-walla but I was in a rush and asked you to manage. Oh what a fool I was. If that day I had let you have it your way, the bus wouldn’t have rammed into you while you were crossing the road to get change. Please don’t be mad at me. If I knew that that was your last morning with me, I never would have done it. I’ve realised that any day can be the last day of life honey.

Two years have gone by and I’ve been coming here every evening just as I promised. But you’ve changed now. You’re refusing to sit next to me and hold my hand. You’ve chosen sleep to me. But how long will you sleep? Wake up! Wake up for my sake. Just look at once. I brought your favourite chocolates, those red balloons and carnations. Wake up to me darling. I’ve been begging you for forgiveness for two years and you still haven’t accepted my apologies?

I’ve realized so much about life doll. Today I can see your point of view. I have the maturity to flow where I should and take stands wherever necessary, but all of this is still not bringing you back to me. Is that thing called god even listening to me? Time is precious and it’s slipping away and it feels like I’ve been waiting for you all of my life. Sugar plum, there’s no time to even love, then where is the time to fight? Talk to me. Come back to me angle.

RAVI    MANIK

After reading this one thing I would say one thing to you all is that :-

Express your LOVE for others, in a way they understand, when people are around, when they need it most.